The second day without you, lifeless. I don't wanna do anything, don't wanna speak a word, don't wanna face anyone, what I want is just stay in my room, lie on my bed, force myself to forget everything about you.
It's really painful, the heart-broken, the heartache, they are torturing me each and every second when I'm awake. The only moment that I can feel relief is when I'm sleeping, no thinking, no pain. These two nights, I cried until I fall asleep, when I wake up, I start to weep again, I don't want to be like that but I just can't help stopping the tears. I have no mood for anything, even eating, even going to college, in these two days I only had one meal, I have no appetite at all. When is this painful life gonna stop? Two days are like 2 years for me, time pass so slow without you.
Many of them asked me 'Will you still be friend with him?' seriously, I have no clue at all, I don't know, for now I just want myself to recover from the pain. Some of them asked me 'Don't you hate him for being so cruel?' why should I? Neither him will be well right now I think. I don't hate, I don't grumble about him, I love him, but there are some questions about him still spinning in my head that I don't know how to answer 'Why can he change so fast?' 'How can he just leave like that? Without even thinking how will I be?' 'Won't you miss me after leaving me?' so many questions that will never have answer :'(
I really miss him so much, I can't live well without him! But I know he will never come back anymore :')
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