The most stressful exam so far!

Gawsh! Final year exam is on tomorrow! TOMORROW ITSELF! :'(

This is the first time I'm being so stressful for exam, I never care for any exam before this even SPM, I think the main reason making me so stressful is the stupid scholarship, I'd rather I didn't get it wer! :\ Bloody thingy.

For what I need now, besides blessings of God, is your spiritual support, is you to be with me. I'm feeling very upset but I don't even dare to tell you, this is so not right, I suppose to tell you every single feeling of mine, so I decided to do so.

For what I hope is to see you stand right in front of the hall and waiting for me after my exam, but I know it probably won't happen since you're busy too.

I really need you to be there for me to win this fight, I miss you.

It's been three days.

It's been 3 days, 3 days without you. Tears are still there, heart still paining, I'm still in totally lost. Perhaps I'm seriously injured, I can't think, can't focus, can't even sleep and eat, I'm so suffering! I did chat with your classmate, he told me the truth, I'm right, you did lie, BUT WHY? Why my heart is still paining? My heart is persuading me to trust you, my heart want me to admit all your and my friends are lying! I think I'm gonna insane, I'm gonna have dual personalities.
The pain, when I saw you left without turning back, I will never forget that kind pain, the pain I never never never experienced before, and I never want to experience it again. I feel like run to you and ask you don't leave, but I know I can't. I'm in pain, in suffer, I really miss you so much, sooo much. Even when everyone on earth is saying I'm too silly, I still choose to trust you one more time, if I have the chance, even I'm hurt, even I knew you've lied me, even I know you don't love me as much as before. I TRUST YOU.
No one on earth know how hurt am I, it's like a thousand times pain compare to a cut by a knife. And I know, this pain will follow me for a very long time, and I don't know when is the limit.

INJURED.

Everywhere I go, everything I do, even a small action can make me think of you, it's like jabbing my heart with a sharp knife, bleeding non-stop.

I really can't stop myself from crying, tears are not mine anymore, they're not controlled by me, they rolling down from my eyes uncontrollably.

I don't know how much time I will take to recover from this, or I should say I will never recover anymore.

I miss you, I miss you so much. I know I'm very silly, even at this moment, I still hope that you'll come back to me; I still think that you might be missing me now.

You were the one who promised me, you'll never leave me, you'll never make me cry, you'll never............ :'(

Why things can be changed so fast? In few minutes, you're not mine anymore, whenever I think about 'you're not mine anymore' I can't stop crying again!

I still keeping your name as 'mymrtan!' in my phone, I don't wanna change a thing, I don't wanna change my relationship status, my purse, my bottle not even a key chain, because they already became part of my life. I don't dare to open the purse, to see the photo in it, but I don't wanna remove it yet, maybe after I recover.

Help me :'(