Life.

Life after exam, should be relax and fun, but NO, I still have Biology assignment to rush and R&C project which I don't know what to do with it ._.

Went to Sunway Lagoon right after the exam and it was really fun! :D Leading a group of guys who didn't go to Sunway Lagoon before, it sounds impossible as most of them are from KL ._.

Spent a day with friends, two days with family and few hours with boyfriend after exam, :( it isn't perfect. Although he've finished his assignment, but still don't have much time to accompany me, I really don't mind when he spend time with his friends, but not like most of his time with his friends. When he's with his friends, he won't text with me, that's mean I'll be all alone for few hours, or even a day. :( I really hope you can spend more time with me than your friends, to show how important am I, at least.

i _ _ _ _ you.

Today I'm in a very puzzled mood, I don't know whether you and I have made a right decision this time.

Seriously, I'm afraid, I'm feel insecure, I don't know what are you thinking and I don't know what should I do next. I'm totally idealess. It's really not easy to rescue a relationship, I hope it can be rescued but if it's not, please do let me know earlier.

I don't wish to be in this kind of insecure condition anymore, I wanna feel the safeness and be cheerful as before. Please be the one, who I always think you'll be my knight again, I don't want the heartache anymore.

怀念

I really miss those days,
When we did revision together, had lunch together;
We meet each other even we have a short break between SPM;
We spent most of our spare time, play badminton together, swim together, sit aimlessly in friend's house just because we wanna spend time together;
We went picnic together, you accompany me to visit the museum even you don't like, do you remember the reason why I love our museum date the most? You attend every date that we made, we will never miss any day that we can date;
No matter where I want to go, you'll definitely accompany me, go with me, without any complaint;
Even when you've finished your SPM, you wanna celebrate with your friends, still you'll bring me along;
When was the last time you told me you miss me? When was the last time you post something sweet on my wall? When was the last time you told me "I do it because you like it" ?
Never let me to have a second to think something that I shouldn't. I really miss those days. You've changed, a lot. No matter you realised or not, admit or not, I can really feel strongly, you've changed, you can't deny. You just not the one who you usually be. Can I go back to the past? I want that YOU back. :( ily.

Love Quote

你爱我的话，我的任性你会视作可爱；你爱我的话，我的无理取闹你会视作撒娇；你爱我的话，我的霸道小气你会视作在乎；你爱我的话，我的粘身你会视作甜蜜。但当激情转为平淡，你会否觉得我的任性是在无理取闹？会否觉得我的霸道小气令你困扰？热恋期的你对待我什么都可以，平淡期的你是否也能始终如一？

爱她, 就不要给她乱想的机会.
因为你永远不会知道, 为你乱想的人是多么的爱你.

The most stressful exam so far!

Gawsh! Final year exam is on tomorrow! TOMORROW ITSELF! :'(

This is the first time I'm being so stressful for exam, I never care for any exam before this even SPM, I think the main reason making me so stressful is the stupid scholarship, I'd rather I didn't get it wer! :\ Bloody thingy.

For what I need now, besides blessings of God, is your spiritual support, is you to be with me. I'm feeling very upset but I don't even dare to tell you, this is so not right, I suppose to tell you every single feeling of mine, so I decided to do so.

For what I hope is to see you stand right in front of the hall and waiting for me after my exam, but I know it probably won't happen since you're busy too.

I really need you to be there for me to win this fight, I miss you.

It's been three days.

It's been 3 days, 3 days without you. Tears are still there, heart still paining, I'm still in totally lost. Perhaps I'm seriously injured, I can't think, can't focus, can't even sleep and eat, I'm so suffering! I did chat with your classmate, he told me the truth, I'm right, you did lie, BUT WHY? Why my heart is still paining? My heart is persuading me to trust you, my heart want me to admit all your and my friends are lying! I think I'm gonna insane, I'm gonna have dual personalities.
The pain, when I saw you left without turning back, I will never forget that kind pain, the pain I never never never experienced before, and I never want to experience it again. I feel like run to you and ask you don't leave, but I know I can't. I'm in pain, in suffer, I really miss you so much, sooo much. Even when everyone on earth is saying I'm too silly, I still choose to trust you one more time, if I have the chance, even I'm hurt, even I knew you've lied me, even I know you don't love me as much as before. I TRUST YOU.
No one on earth know how hurt am I, it's like a thousand times pain compare to a cut by a knife. And I know, this pain will follow me for a very long time, and I don't know when is the limit.

INJURED.

Everywhere I go, everything I do, even a small action can make me think of you, it's like jabbing my heart with a sharp knife, bleeding non-stop.

I really can't stop myself from crying, tears are not mine anymore, they're not controlled by me, they rolling down from my eyes uncontrollably.

I don't know how much time I will take to recover from this, or I should say I will never recover anymore.

I miss you, I miss you so much. I know I'm very silly, even at this moment, I still hope that you'll come back to me; I still think that you might be missing me now.

You were the one who promised me, you'll never leave me, you'll never make me cry, you'll never............ :'(

Why things can be changed so fast? In few minutes, you're not mine anymore, whenever I think about 'you're not mine anymore' I can't stop crying again!

I still keeping your name as 'mymrtan!' in my phone, I don't wanna change a thing, I don't wanna change my relationship status, my purse, my bottle not even a key chain, because they already became part of my life. I don't dare to open the purse, to see the photo in it, but I don't wanna remove it yet, maybe after I recover.

Help me :'(