The most stressful exam so far!

Gawsh! Final year exam is on tomorrow! TOMORROW ITSELF! :'(

This is the first time I'm being so stressful for exam, I never care for any exam before this even SPM, I think the main reason making me so stressful is the stupid scholarship, I'd rather I didn't get it wer! :\ Bloody thingy.

For what I need now, besides blessings of God, is your spiritual support, is you to be with me. I'm feeling very upset but I don't even dare to tell you, this is so not right, I suppose to tell you every single feeling of mine, so I decided to do so.

For what I hope is to see you stand right in front of the hall and waiting for me after my exam, but I know it probably won't happen since you're busy too.

I really need you to be there for me to win this fight, I miss you.

It's been three days.

It's been 3 days, 3 days without you. Tears are still there, heart still paining, I'm still in totally lost. Perhaps I'm seriously injured, I can't think, can't focus, can't even sleep and eat, I'm so suffering! I did chat with your classmate, he told me the truth, I'm right, you did lie, BUT WHY? Why my heart is still paining? My heart is persuading me to trust you, my heart want me to admit all your and my friends are lying! I think I'm gonna insane, I'm gonna have dual personalities.
The pain, when I saw you left without turning back, I will never forget that kind pain, the pain I never never never experienced before, and I never want to experience it again. I feel like run to you and ask you don't leave, but I know I can't. I'm in pain, in suffer, I really miss you so much, sooo much. Even when everyone on earth is saying I'm too silly, I still choose to trust you one more time, if I have the chance, even I'm hurt, even I knew you've lied me, even I know you don't love me as much as before. I TRUST YOU.
No one on earth know how hurt am I, it's like a thousand times pain compare to a cut by a knife. And I know, this pain will follow me for a very long time, and I don't know when is the limit.

INJURED.

Everywhere I go, everything I do, even a small action can make me think of you, it's like jabbing my heart with a sharp knife, bleeding non-stop.

I really can't stop myself from crying, tears are not mine anymore, they're not controlled by me, they rolling down from my eyes uncontrollably.

I don't know how much time I will take to recover from this, or I should say I will never recover anymore.

I miss you, I miss you so much. I know I'm very silly, even at this moment, I still hope that you'll come back to me; I still think that you might be missing me now.

You were the one who promised me, you'll never leave me, you'll never make me cry, you'll never............ :'(

Why things can be changed so fast? In few minutes, you're not mine anymore, whenever I think about 'you're not mine anymore' I can't stop crying again!

I still keeping your name as 'mymrtan!' in my phone, I don't wanna change a thing, I don't wanna change my relationship status, my purse, my bottle not even a key chain, because they already became part of my life. I don't dare to open the purse, to see the photo in it, but I don't wanna remove it yet, maybe after I recover.

Help me :'(

Laziness

OMG OMG!

Final exam is so soon, and my laziness is creeping all over my body! D:

Gawsh! Can someone please help me? Or anyone has any medicine for curing laziness? I really can't let this keep going on like this, I'mma DIE if I don't maintain my scholarship!

I think one of the best way to make me study is not to stay at home D: Once I stay at home, I have all kind of entertainment and excuses for myself not to study -.- I think I'd better stay back in college until I finish revision and homework, that shall work better.

Teng Su Fen, I shall miss you :'(

This post is specially dedicate to my best friend, Teng Su Fen! :) who gonna leave us very soon! :'(

It's been 5 years, 5 years of friendship, it's not really that long but I really appreciate it so much :') You're always my best friend, who will always be there whenever I need someone to talk to, need someone to accompany me! Among so many friends, you're the one who I have the least argument with, ;) in fact, no argument also :D

Seriously, Teng, I can't imagine how am I gonna be when you're in so far! :( I can't text u and disturb u like how I used to be. I shall miss all the moments we were together, but not those when you molest me! :P

I promise I'll definitely come to Russia and visit you in these 6 years. Wait me okay? :D

Yours lovely,

ME, your cutest friend, Kar Yee :D

Genting trip with mymrtan! :D

27 August 2011, a date which I was so so damn looking forward to! :) It finally reached and I did enjoy the day.

Went to Genting with my baby boy for 2 days one night. For me, I'm actually not interested with all those roller coaster stuffs, just that I wanna spend time with my HIM :D

Basically, we just doing something meaningless, walking around, eat, go for a few rides, sleep, but these are all not the point! The point is HE is beside me :)

Everything was quite okay, just that my pity boy don't get to sleep at night, perhaps it's because of the strange bed and the flu :( Pity him. He was awake for the whole night, and I was like waking up every hour to see whether he's asleep or not.

But one thing that he did very enjoy is I dry his hair for him XD

The next morning, his face was so emo and tired, he said he's sad because we're gonna apart soon. :( I was just feeling pity over him because he can't get well rest. Then we went back home, I mean his home :O I spent like few hours at there and I was like... kinda awkward because I got no key to go back *blush* but ah boy told me there are nothing to be shy of, because he is my boyfriend not my friend :) awww~

Then we went out for dinner at Fullhouse, then HOME SWEET HOME! :)

I miss him so much and I don't wanna leave to home. :( I wish I can be with all the time!

HOLIDAYS, I'm coming! :D

One more day to holidays! WOWWWW! I'm so freaking excited because this weekends I'm going to Genting Highland with my baby! :D OMG OMG! I'm so happy ;)

Tomorrow will be the last day and I'll have the last subject test! :) In less than 48 hours, I'll be at Genting Highland. Seriously can't wait, my heart is there already!

Well, today is our one and a half year anniversary, but too bad, he's tooooo busy that's why we can't even meet today :( Not to say meet, we don't even text much, damn sad about it. :'(

Today should have basketball practice, but it's cancelled due to the heavy downpour!

My excitement is overwhelming! :D Countdown: ONE MORE DAY LEFT!